Good-by, My Dear Friends hr685

 Our furniture and appliances have finished being moved into our new apartment. My partner and I were gazing at an array of our musical instruments spread all over the floor in the living room of our empty apartment.
Five synthesizers, two electric guitars, an 88-key MIDI board, two rhythm machines, three sequencers, three sound source modules, many effectors, an 8-track open reel recorder, an 8-track mixer, a 16-track mixer, a drum set and accessories. Those instruments have occupied a large space of our tiny apartment although they haven't been used for over twenty years since a computer became a dominant tool for me to make my music. Today, a person from the used instrument purchase company was coming to our apartment to make an assessment and collect them. The instruments that spent so many years with me were on standby for their last work with a  somewhat tense look.
We shared a lot of memories. It was my custom in my old days to carry several heavy instruments on foot and by train into the studio every time my band practiced and rehearsed. I input data of the arrangement I made for my song on the sequencer by staying up all night and the entire data was all gone in a flash when I tripped on the power cord toward morning that got pulled out of the outlet. Technical difficulties were rampant on the live stage since I used so many kinds of electric instruments connected to each other in place of human band members, such as no sound came out of the sequencer or unexpected sound was produced from the synthesizer, which needless to say horrified me and gave me a cold sweat each time. The instruments felt much heavier on my way home whenever I lost a contest or an audition. We had trodden together on a long, endless road of disappointment and cravings. Though I had already stopped using most of them by the time I moved into this apartment, I brought them anyway by paying costly moving expenses because I was too attached to them to let them go.
For this move, however, I decided not to bring them to my new apartment. I was no longer my past self who had desperately coveted success as a band or had focused too much on writing songs and recording them without sleep until I harmed my health. As I grew older and accumulated more experiences, I came to understand things and be mature. That helped me sort out my feelings. I felt it was time to take the next step of my life, thus time to leave my instruments.
Looking back, not all the memories we shared were bitter. There were fond memories as well. An extremely hopeful feeling that I had when I got a new instrument with all the money I saved by working for months on my part-time job. An indescribable satisfaction I obtained when I got the best take after redid recording hundreds of times. Heavenly bliss I felt when I listened to my completed song after a long period of time of making. After all those years, I finally realized how happy I had been and how valuable my experiences were.
The person who came to our apartment from the used instrument purchase company was a young man who undoubtedly wasn't born yet when I bought these instruments. He carefully looked into each of them to decide the price. When he was done, he asked, "Why are you selling them?" My partner replied, "We make music with a computer now and don't use them anymore." Then he said to my partner and me, "It's so wonderful that you have been making music all the way together."
The price he offered was far higher than we had expected. While we didn't have much income from our music no matter how hard we strove with those instruments, they earned a good sum of money for us at the very end. We helped him load the sold instruments onto his van and saw them off. I was a little sad, but somehow refreshed and cleared at the same time. And that made me feel like our new life had just begun.

 

Shifting Seasons, Renewed Mind hr684

 

The local bus I got on was crowded. While I barely found a seat to sit on, my partner was standing with heavy bags on his shoulders and hands. A woman behind him got up and said to him, “Would you like to sit here?” and he declined saying, “No thank you, I’m fine.” He told me later that he was shocked when he was treated as an elderly by being offered someone’s seat for the first time in his life. He may have looked older than his age since his hair was grey and wearing sunglasses and a mask.

I have taken this local bus before and it is usually near empty. But early November causes a sudden change every year. The section deep into my rural town is a popular tourist destination for skiing and autumn leaves. Many tourists from the metropolitan area visit to see the colorful landscape in autumn. The skiing slopes operate ski lifts for a midair trip by gondolas that run above trees and between valleys of colorful autumn leaves, which has been a major attraction of my town in recent years.

On the local bus, I heard a woman who was sitting next to me and traveling as a group exclaiming to her friends, “Look, look, how beautiful the colors are! Look at the gorgeous view! How wonderful!” The route of this bus was on a narrow winding road that threaded into mountains. It climbed steep slopes with numerous curves and through long tunnels. After each tunnel, the leaves along the road grew more colorful and the mountainous view got more and more breathtaking with trees that changed their clothes into red and yellow. Although this view was an autumn norm for me and what I had gotten used to seeing, it must have been worth taking hours to come to see as a weekend trip for people from the city.

The reason why both my partner and I were carrying so much baggage was because we were in the middle of moving. We had decided to move from an apartment in a remote town to a different one further deep in the mountain inside the same town. Since we’ve got too much stuff, we have spent several months packing and have sent our furniture and packed boxes in parts repeatedly by a small moving company because we don’t have a driver’s license. Before moving into this town for the first time, we used to live in the urban area. Once we settled in the rural small town surrounded by mountains, we found that living in nature suited our liking. Our fondness for nature had grown in the course of our country life, which led to our decision of moving much deeper into mountains. No human lives beyond our new apartment. Only nature and wild animals reside there.

Since I left an urban life, I have less and less compared myself to others and have hardly cared what people make a fuss about. A sense of happiness has increased as I have been able to concentrate on my work. I chose to move into more isolated mountains probably because I would like to be freed even more from a secular society.

By the time the local bus arrived at the bus stop close to our new apartment, all the tourists had gotten off near the ski lift and my partner and I were the only passengers. When I entered our apartment, heaps of cardboard boxes holding our stuff welcomed me. Out of the window was a range of colorful mountains filled with red, yellow and green trees. As words in a song say, we can get truly wonderful things without money, such as love and appreciating beautiful nature. It seems to make no sense to use up a lifetime by spending a large sum of money for worthless things and working like stink to afford them. Observing my parents’ life in which they unwillingly married without love for money and the family name and lost everything in the end, I have nurtured that kind of thought.

While we were eating dinner, the sun set, and a sky full of stars began to shine out of the new window.