Saturday, March 12, 2016
Vertigo hr564
When I woke up in the morning and sit up on the bed, my room whirled
before my eyes. Anxiety was what I felt first thing in the morning. I
wondered if I had a serious illness, if I was developing a brain tumor,
if my autonomic nerve was damaged and if I couldn’t live a healthy life
any longer. I was swallowed up by the waves of all kinds of negative
thoughts. It was how I started a brand-new day and I had been in this
mess for over a week. I sometimes feel dizzy but vertigo rarely happens
to me. It occurred only three times to the best of my memory. The first
time was when I was fourteen and dieting solely on watermelon. I had
eaten nothing but watermelon for three days and had vertigo in the
morning of the fourth day. The diet ended there and my weight rebounded,
as is the way with dieting. The second time was about two years ago
when I continued lack of sleep for years to keep religiously my daily
routine of taking an early morning spa. I had a massive attack of
vertigo in the middle of the night and scribbled an instant will because
I believed I was dying. And this recent week-long dizziness was the
third time. Since it has become my mantra that “there’s always an answer
on the Internet,” I looked it up online. Most websites gave lengthy
negative possibilities of serious illnesses that threw readers down into
the depths of anxiety. They concluded that dizzy spells could lead to
complete deafness or death. Those pieces of information weren’t what I
was looking for. I wanted to know how to cure. I kept searching for
remedy, but all ‘How to Cure’ sections were the same; Go see a doctor.
Do they think we don’t come up with that idea until we look up on the
Internet? I wouldn’t have been online if I had decided to see a doctor
in the first place. The point was, I was on the net not to see a doctor.
I learned from my experience that going to the doctor would do more
harm than good in most cases. When I see a doctor, I need to get up
early in the morning, wait for a long time at the hospital for my turn
while being exposed to various viruses of other patients, go through all
kinds of medical examination, get sucked my blood, take numerous kinds
of medicine, get more ill by the medicine’s side effects and feel more
stress and anxiety. I don’t trust especially clinics and hospitals in
Japan. I once went to the dentist for a root canal. Although the
treatment was supposed to be done in one visit, the doctor divided it
into four extremely short visits. On the last visit when the treatment
was all done, the doctor told me to make another appointment because he
found a cavity in my back tooth. As I didn’t notice it and it didn’t
hurt at all, I said that I didn’t want the treatment and wouldn’t come.
Then he told me, rather threatened me, that even if it didn’t hurt,
leaving a cavity would be catastrophic. He added, “A cavity is cancer.” I
was deeply intimidated by the sound of ‘cancer’, but still kept cool
enough to judge that a cavity was quite different from cancer. I never
went there again. Since I had no intention to go to the doctor this time
as well, I looked up my dizziness further on the Internet. I came
across one US website that finally said about the cure for my symptoms.
It illustrated how to move my head to stop vertigo and it cured my
week-long dizzy spells instantly with one simple try. I had a pleasant
morning without vertigo at last. Internet solved my problem yet again,
big time. I read on about what caused it after all and the site said
stress. I don’t know any illness which causes don’t include stress. I
don’t know how to live without stress either…
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